Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Hari ini suasana berbeza sekali…
Terima kasih Yesus,.. aku tau aku dapat mengandalkan mu utk semua perkara… I can saw YOUR angel in every person I’ve met yesterday,..today.. thank you for giving me friends that I count on during my hardest times..thank you Olga and Brenda for being beside me..for helping me in many ways…thank u Will, Keegan,.udoi..for supporting me in your prayer… God bless you all abundantly.. dad making a progress today..
Monday, November 16, 2009
I’ll be home tomorrow...
Gembira rasanya dapat balik ruma.. aku rindu btul suasana d ruma, rindu masakan mama, rindu c buntal.. rindu papa.. kemarin merupakan hari yg sgt memilukan buat aku.. terkejut trima panggilan telefon dr mama, skrin terpapar nama mama.. yang ku dgr hanyalah tangisan… kira2 seminit kemudian mama, bagitau…papa sakit kuat… he cnt even moves his legs….then after two hours, mom called again.. dia bgtau..doktor kata sakit papa makin teruk..si doctor predicted papa can only live for a few months lg… rasanya mcm mau pengsan dgr berita tu… rasanya mcm mau blk jaa..tp exam blm abis lg… I was criying like hell…. Its really hard to heard that news.. 2010 will be the greatest year for my family… abang son akan kahwin, aku dgn wes akan konvo..we’ll be living in our new home… I can’t imagine if we have to celebrate that moment without papa…
Saturday, November 14, 2009
keterbatasan kita...
Keterbatasan di saat kesesakan.. seringkali kita merasakan lelah yang amat sangat ketika melalui suatu kesusahan.. kesusahan yang kita lihat dari kekuatan diri sendiri sehinggakan kita merasakan kita di jalan buntu, (timbul persoalan “Tuhan, mengapa harus jadi begini?” dan berbagai-bagai lagi soalan yang kita lemparkan untuk Tuhan,meragui tangan kasihNYA…)
di saat-saat itu hadir pertolongan dari saudara yang bukan seiman, memperlihatkan kita terang di hujung jalan.. dengan kata- kata yang manis bahkan jaminan hidup manusiawi, kita menjual iman percaya kita… percayalah, di saat2 buntu, bukan Yesus Kristus yang meninggalkan kita, tetapi kita yang tidak menjemput Dia dalam kehidupan kita,..
Begini laa antara banyak cerita, alasan yang diberikan oleh mereka yang “menjual” iman percaya mereka hanya kerana godaan dan pertolongan saudara bukan seiman… please laa.. jangan menjadi seperti tu, wahai rakan2 seiman, dosa mu, bukan di tebus dengan percuma, ada pertumpahan darah di kayu salib… kesakitan yang ditanggungNYA tidak serupa dengan kesakitan yang kita tanggung di muka bumi ini… kerana itu, DIA tahu penderitaan mu,..DIA pernah melaluinya… TanganNYA tidak pernah terlambat untuk menolong mu, walaupun menanti dengan waktu NYA itu, kadang2 membuat kita terfikir “Tuhan mungkin lupa akan aku?” hakikatnya, DIA sedang mempersiapkan suatu hadiah istimewa dan indah..( ya, rakan2 ku,..kita kan tahu, hadiah yang istimewa dan indah itu, perlu waktu yang panjang untuk disiapkan yaa..)
di saat-saat itu hadir pertolongan dari saudara yang bukan seiman, memperlihatkan kita terang di hujung jalan.. dengan kata- kata yang manis bahkan jaminan hidup manusiawi, kita menjual iman percaya kita… percayalah, di saat2 buntu, bukan Yesus Kristus yang meninggalkan kita, tetapi kita yang tidak menjemput Dia dalam kehidupan kita,..
Begini laa antara banyak cerita, alasan yang diberikan oleh mereka yang “menjual” iman percaya mereka hanya kerana godaan dan pertolongan saudara bukan seiman… please laa.. jangan menjadi seperti tu, wahai rakan2 seiman, dosa mu, bukan di tebus dengan percuma, ada pertumpahan darah di kayu salib… kesakitan yang ditanggungNYA tidak serupa dengan kesakitan yang kita tanggung di muka bumi ini… kerana itu, DIA tahu penderitaan mu,..DIA pernah melaluinya… TanganNYA tidak pernah terlambat untuk menolong mu, walaupun menanti dengan waktu NYA itu, kadang2 membuat kita terfikir “Tuhan mungkin lupa akan aku?” hakikatnya, DIA sedang mempersiapkan suatu hadiah istimewa dan indah..( ya, rakan2 ku,..kita kan tahu, hadiah yang istimewa dan indah itu, perlu waktu yang panjang untuk disiapkan yaa..)
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Bencinyaa akuuuu.....
Astaga,bencinya aku sma housemate cina aku ni… sabar2 ja laa..tggl 2 weeks lg aku sma2 dgn drg.. semuanya pengotor, yang satu sembarang ja letak pad (tuala wanita ) yg berdarah2 di merata tempat. Yg lain smuanya pemalas, nk bersihkan rumah..harap jadual bru nk gerak bersihkan… btul la..kata org first impression ni penting!! Aku tguk smua housemate cina aku ni..pnya kuat teriak, teriak dlm phone lagi laa, even ckp dgn org tua, boyfriend kaa..nak jg teriak2…huhuhu adat kali!! Dh laa mereka ni kuat buat bising tgh malam tak sedar2 diri yang jiran2 dh tidur… s**t …pengotor! Kuat teriak!! --- aku x tau laa apa nak ckp dgn dorang ni.. sorrylaa!! Dah banyak cina aku jmpa…smuanya mcm tu…sama ja.. aku nak buat mcm mna..mata aku ternampak, jd hati ni susah nak berpura2…jd so far nilah yg ku judge utk drg… PENGOTOR!! KUAT TERIAK!! YUCCKKKKKK….. someday, i hope i'll meet cina yg ble mengubah persepsi aku ttg mereka..
(p/s: ini hal lepas geram jaa..)
(p/s: ini hal lepas geram jaa..)
Monday, November 2, 2009
My art works…
Im thinking to do more art works in this semester break… its been a while, the last time (last semester break) I did was remodeling the chopping wood, quilt blanket .an hanger for keys and cross stitches ..so on this semester break i look forward to do fish pond behind our home’s kitchen ,… thanks to mum, she’s really supportive( dad was geleng2 kepala)…I wish I can done my photo portrait album..and doing some wood stuff again ( if dad bagi kayu dia) …tp yang penting pisau Rambo dia yang kecil, dia bagi waris sama aku sdh laa..i really love it.. It beautiful..(he’s keep telling, ”tu pisau tggl d ruma ja,jgn bawa jln2” he thought maybe I have the intention to bring it somewhere laa tu) sama yang penting tu ukiran kayu atas bamboo kecil aku kena siap before next year…aiyaaa.. bru igt..tu art guna rempah ratus lagi blm buat2.........
painting my room
mmmm… Im thinking what colour to use… I want it looks like retro..hehe the polka dot.. small ones will suit as the space cutely small.. how about light purple with white?? The ying and yang colour?? Yay..as long its not pink or green…
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Welcome November!
Its November tomorrow!! How time flies… it’s two more months to go to welcome 2010!!
Lots of friend are getting marry soon.. I wish them luck. May love that they cherished will be forever ‘till their last breathe. i’m happy for them, though it gives me a slightly jealous feeling..haha… wish I can meet my soul mate soon… I dnt wnt to be in rush in finding ones… but, please God, let it be worth waiting... im not perfect, so I would not looking for mr.perfect. and I won’t search for someone who I can see my reflection in.
I want someone I can trust on, someone who let me be “me”, someone who can see far beyond the wall, someone who I can share my silly jokes and laugh together, someone who see kindness in others not their impurities, someone who bring me out of blue, someone who respect other ideologies, someone who love Jesus Christ…
Lots of friend are getting marry soon.. I wish them luck. May love that they cherished will be forever ‘till their last breathe. i’m happy for them, though it gives me a slightly jealous feeling..haha… wish I can meet my soul mate soon… I dnt wnt to be in rush in finding ones… but, please God, let it be worth waiting... im not perfect, so I would not looking for mr.perfect. and I won’t search for someone who I can see my reflection in.
I want someone I can trust on, someone who let me be “me”, someone who can see far beyond the wall, someone who I can share my silly jokes and laugh together, someone who see kindness in others not their impurities, someone who bring me out of blue, someone who respect other ideologies, someone who love Jesus Christ…
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Lord, I am sorry…
Its really hard for me, when rage and fury overwhelm in my heart. I know my will to Your commands must be deferred. In all things, Lord works only for my good. You continuously give me blessing that I can’t understand. Sometime, I think I’d be peaceful if I’d do the things I want. But I know I’ll only gain temporary happiness then… I should be wise in choosing my path… Lord, here again I kneel down to pray, I want to mold my life after You. I pray, I try, but my sinful nature wins. Lord, help me, I can’t do anything without you.
(*_*)
Recently, I was listening to a new hymn of God, I never heard this song before which is entitle ‘Hati sebagai murid’. Somehow the lyrics are so beautiful, and leave behind a wonderful touch in my heart. It sung by an Indonesia singer. Here are the lyrics;
Disaat ku tak mengerti,
Perkara yang sedang kualami,
Kupercaya Kau-lah Tuhan,
Yang tahu apa yang sedang Kau lakukan
c/o
Kutahu Kau sedang mengajarku,
Lewat s’gala sesuatu,
Agarku semakin serupa gambaran-Mu
B’rikanku hati sebagai murid-Mu
Yang mendapat hikmat-Mu
Agarku selalu tinggal dalam kemuliaan-Mu
Disaat ku tak mengerti,
Perkara yang sedang kualami,
Kupercaya Kau-lah Tuhan,
Yang tahu apa yang sedang Kau lakukan
c/o
Kutahu Kau sedang mengajarku,
Lewat s’gala sesuatu,
Agarku semakin serupa gambaran-Mu
B’rikanku hati sebagai murid-Mu
Yang mendapat hikmat-Mu
Agarku selalu tinggal dalam kemuliaan-Mu
Thursday, October 22, 2009
tekanan lagi..
My life today is some kind of erratic. The mind was exhausted… I supposed (YEAH SUPPOSED) to print out my asgmnt which is a poster few days earlier so that I won’t be in rush today.. when I printed it out it was out of far from what I expected it should be.. the pixel is blur..aiyahh… I have to redo the poster again… this is what I gain from procrastinate the “holy time”!! The date line is today!! I didn’t make it.. I’m going to send it by tomorrow..yay..kena tolak markah lagi..but at least I send it or no marks at all…sad na sad ako..
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Let’s pray for each other
When the Indonesia was continuously being hits by disasters,
A lot of people were making their own judgments to what had happened to Indonesia.
Some said, Indonesia was cursed because all what happened in the past. Their economic, terrorism, natural disasters was occurred on the same time… there were tears for the sudden deaths, famine may become a part of certain families, some has an open sky as their roofs as lives may be erratic, for the injured victims, their lives may not be the same again… imagine if we were on their shoes…
To all Indonesian,
As a Malaysian, being the nearest neighborhood to you, I do felt dismay to what happened recently…your burden was palpable…
With this small hand I close to together, I pray for you…God bless you, Indonesia. Amen!
A lot of people were making their own judgments to what had happened to Indonesia.
Some said, Indonesia was cursed because all what happened in the past. Their economic, terrorism, natural disasters was occurred on the same time… there were tears for the sudden deaths, famine may become a part of certain families, some has an open sky as their roofs as lives may be erratic, for the injured victims, their lives may not be the same again… imagine if we were on their shoes…
To all Indonesian,
As a Malaysian, being the nearest neighborhood to you, I do felt dismay to what happened recently…your burden was palpable…
With this small hand I close to together, I pray for you…God bless you, Indonesia. Amen!
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
umiiyak sa puso ko!!
Final exam is jst aroun' d corner.yet,still haven't start my revision... am i kidding myself rite now?!! aiyaa,..im kinda stress,thinking where to move for next semester, my brother's identity problem,budgeting my money, my grades,...im having flaking skin, kinda pimply this month(yeah, padan muka..switch2 facial cleanser kan..plus the weather is piping hot all days..)
makanan rohani
(For it is by your words that you will not be guilty and it is by your words that you will be guilty- matt 12:37)
“Karena menurut ucapanmu engkau dibenarkan dan menurut ucapanmu engkau akan dihukum.” Matius 12:37
Ketika kita menelusuri Alkitab dengan membacanya dari kitab Kejadian hingga Wahyu kita akan menemukan ada ribuan janji/ Firman Allah yang tertulis. Allah tidak hanya memberikan janji-janjiNya itu pada kita supaya kita percaya saja, tetapi supaya kita juga memperkatakan janji-janji Allah itu. Dan melalui ucapan/perkataan, kita dapat memperoleh dua hal iaitu, dibenarkan atau dihukum. Kita bukan sahaja bersalah kerana tindak tanduk perlakuan kita tetapi juga oleh kerana ucapan kita, perkataannya yang dianggap dapat merugikan orang , apabila ucapan seseorang itu bermakna, dapat memberi inspirasi, semangat, dan motivasi, maka orang tersebut akan dihargai, dikenal baik, dan dihormati orang. Melalui ucapan seseorang, kita dapat melihat apakah ia orang beriman atau tidak. Begitu pentingnya ucapan itu.
Apakah yang kita ucapkan dalam kehidupan sehari-hari? Apakah ucapan atau perkataan itu menyatakan tentang kegagalanmu, ketidakmampuanmu, kekecewaanmu, kemarahanmu? Boleh saja kita menyatakan hal itu, namun hal itu tidak berguna dan tidak mendatangkan berkat bagi kita. Janganlah ucapkan hal-hal yang sia-sia, karena dapat menambah masalah. Kita harus memiliki ucapan yang membangun, yang sedap didengar, ucapan yang mengundang kuasa Allah terjadi.
“Karena menurut ucapanmu engkau dibenarkan dan menurut ucapanmu engkau akan dihukum.” Matius 12:37
Ketika kita menelusuri Alkitab dengan membacanya dari kitab Kejadian hingga Wahyu kita akan menemukan ada ribuan janji/ Firman Allah yang tertulis. Allah tidak hanya memberikan janji-janjiNya itu pada kita supaya kita percaya saja, tetapi supaya kita juga memperkatakan janji-janji Allah itu. Dan melalui ucapan/perkataan, kita dapat memperoleh dua hal iaitu, dibenarkan atau dihukum. Kita bukan sahaja bersalah kerana tindak tanduk perlakuan kita tetapi juga oleh kerana ucapan kita, perkataannya yang dianggap dapat merugikan orang , apabila ucapan seseorang itu bermakna, dapat memberi inspirasi, semangat, dan motivasi, maka orang tersebut akan dihargai, dikenal baik, dan dihormati orang. Melalui ucapan seseorang, kita dapat melihat apakah ia orang beriman atau tidak. Begitu pentingnya ucapan itu.
Apakah yang kita ucapkan dalam kehidupan sehari-hari? Apakah ucapan atau perkataan itu menyatakan tentang kegagalanmu, ketidakmampuanmu, kekecewaanmu, kemarahanmu? Boleh saja kita menyatakan hal itu, namun hal itu tidak berguna dan tidak mendatangkan berkat bagi kita. Janganlah ucapkan hal-hal yang sia-sia, karena dapat menambah masalah. Kita harus memiliki ucapan yang membangun, yang sedap didengar, ucapan yang mengundang kuasa Allah terjadi.
Mi nueva casa..
Estoy tan feliz... mi familia se desplazara a nuestra nueva casa en el final de este ano... la casa es muy grande de mi casa ahora...
hooray!!
hooray!!
Monday, October 12, 2009
My silent moment..
Forgive me Lord! To felt devastated,.. Pledging for more blessings, in my life, though I know I have enough to live on… I am far more lucky than those what the world address as homeless people, those who stricken in poverty and less-fortunate.. Im not born with silver spoon in my mouth, I knew how much mama and papa struggle to achieve with what we have now…I knw God led our path... Im not perfect… but I wish those my flaws will soon invisible to others. Meeting with (what I considered) rude people, I did sometimes saw their reflection in me. That’s made me enough to struggle not to do the same things again and again.
Teach me Lord, not to judge people by their looks; Your are the One who moulds them. If I judge, Im judging every single thing of Your piece of works…
Teach me Lord, to give more… I knw there will be enough for everyone…
Teach me Lord, to love more… even to those who hurt my heart…
And…teach me how to use my tongue to bless others… with compliment, sincere advice…and not to curse.
Amen…
Teach me Lord, not to judge people by their looks; Your are the One who moulds them. If I judge, Im judging every single thing of Your piece of works…
Teach me Lord, to give more… I knw there will be enough for everyone…
Teach me Lord, to love more… even to those who hurt my heart…
And…teach me how to use my tongue to bless others… with compliment, sincere advice…and not to curse.
Amen…
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Be careful!!
Be careful of your thoughts
for your thoughts become your word.
Be careful of your words
for your words become your actions.
Be careful of your actions
for your actions become your habits.
Be careful of your habits
for your habits become your character.
Be careful of your character
for your character becomes your destiny.
for your thoughts become your word.
Be careful of your words
for your words become your actions.
Be careful of your actions
for your actions become your habits.
Be careful of your habits
for your habits become your character.
Be careful of your character
for your character becomes your destiny.
aishh..aishh
Hari ini..mcm rindu rasanya untuk menulis sesuatu…
Kadang2 aku rasa pelik la…mungkin aku yang terlalu sensitive or what… aku ada sorang kawan ni… bila tguk luaran mmg nampak alim ni..biasalah slalu dgr lagu rohani, always baca bible and melayani di church, ..hinggakan when I curse ( yeah, I do curse sometime…buduh,gila,sot etc..) dia akan tegur ni marah la tu kunun… tp dia apa kurangnya..klu bergurau, lansung tak lucu… dia lansung tak sedar yg gurauan dia tu menghina…kutuk luaran org... pelik sikit budak ni…ntahla dia sedar or tidak perangai buruk dia tu.. yelah, kita ni manusia, punya hati berbeza… bukan semua org suka gurauan cara hinaan… mmm…tau laa org bnyk kekurangan… tp please la jangan kutuk mcm tu,.. klu nak kutuk pun, kutuk la time tu org x dgr..supaya x jugala sedih c empunya diri..( if aku lah..aku akan kutuk sembunyi2, biar aku ja yg berdosa,..asal c empunya diri x kecil hati pastu tersandung)…aishh…
Kadang2 aku rasa pelik la…mungkin aku yang terlalu sensitive or what… aku ada sorang kawan ni… bila tguk luaran mmg nampak alim ni..biasalah slalu dgr lagu rohani, always baca bible and melayani di church, ..hinggakan when I curse ( yeah, I do curse sometime…buduh,gila,sot etc..) dia akan tegur ni marah la tu kunun… tp dia apa kurangnya..klu bergurau, lansung tak lucu… dia lansung tak sedar yg gurauan dia tu menghina…kutuk luaran org... pelik sikit budak ni…ntahla dia sedar or tidak perangai buruk dia tu.. yelah, kita ni manusia, punya hati berbeza… bukan semua org suka gurauan cara hinaan… mmm…tau laa org bnyk kekurangan… tp please la jangan kutuk mcm tu,.. klu nak kutuk pun, kutuk la time tu org x dgr..supaya x jugala sedih c empunya diri..( if aku lah..aku akan kutuk sembunyi2, biar aku ja yg berdosa,..asal c empunya diri x kecil hati pastu tersandung)…aishh…
Friday, September 25, 2009
Dear my beloved friends,
I knew God has gave me bunches of wonderful person along the journey of my life. I know the future is not me to holds, we may not always be together, but i hope u can remember me always as ur friend as I never forget u...and I knw friends are a very rare jewel, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us.
so friends,I wish these for you...
Comfort on difficult days,
Smiles when sadness intrudes,
Rainbows to follow the clouds,
Laughter to kiss your lips,
Sunsets to warm your heart,
Gentle hugs when spirits sag,
Friendships to brighten your being,
Beauty for your eyes to see,
Confidence for when you doubt,
Faith so that you can believe,
Courage to know yourself,
Patience to accept the truth,
And love to complete your life.
so friends,I wish these for you...
Comfort on difficult days,
Smiles when sadness intrudes,
Rainbows to follow the clouds,
Laughter to kiss your lips,
Sunsets to warm your heart,
Gentle hugs when spirits sag,
Friendships to brighten your being,
Beauty for your eyes to see,
Confidence for when you doubt,
Faith so that you can believe,
Courage to know yourself,
Patience to accept the truth,
And love to complete your life.
Mum.. i love you too...
I love you too mum,as much as I love si papa...
Gusto ko' kasama kayo hanggang kailan...
Kami tahu…
beribu - ribu peluh kau keluarkan untuk kami
beribu - ribu tetes air mata kau keluarkan untuk kami
jika kami nakal..
senyum tulus slalu kau salurkan ke hati kami.
Terima kasih Mama,
begitu besar pengorbananmu,
begitu besar cinta kasihmu,
kami slalu ingin kasih sayang dan hangatmu
Maafkan kami ma..
kami tahu dirimu lelah
kami tahu dirimu letih
kami tahu hatimu terkadang susah
dan merintih karena sifat2 kami
Tapi kami berjanji
kami akan slalu membuatmu tersenyum
kami akan menghapus duka demi duka
yang tergores di hati mu
Maafkan kami ma,
kami hanya dapat memberikan ini
seuntai kata-kata tak berarti…
Tapi kami berjanji akan selalu mengukir
hangatnya senyum dan cinta kasih mu
sampai bilapun
panjangkan lah selalu usianya ya Tuhan…
karna kami takkan lelah melihat
senyum dan sorot matanya yang tulus dan suci…
Mama,
semoga senyum hangatmu tak pernah pudar
semoga uluran tanganmu penuh cinta kasih yang tak pernah sirna.
Gusto ko' kasama kayo hanggang kailan...
Kami tahu…
beribu - ribu peluh kau keluarkan untuk kami
beribu - ribu tetes air mata kau keluarkan untuk kami
jika kami nakal..
senyum tulus slalu kau salurkan ke hati kami.
Terima kasih Mama,
begitu besar pengorbananmu,
begitu besar cinta kasihmu,
kami slalu ingin kasih sayang dan hangatmu
Maafkan kami ma..
kami tahu dirimu lelah
kami tahu dirimu letih
kami tahu hatimu terkadang susah
dan merintih karena sifat2 kami
Tapi kami berjanji
kami akan slalu membuatmu tersenyum
kami akan menghapus duka demi duka
yang tergores di hati mu
Maafkan kami ma,
kami hanya dapat memberikan ini
seuntai kata-kata tak berarti…
Tapi kami berjanji akan selalu mengukir
hangatnya senyum dan cinta kasih mu
sampai bilapun
panjangkan lah selalu usianya ya Tuhan…
karna kami takkan lelah melihat
senyum dan sorot matanya yang tulus dan suci…
Mama,
semoga senyum hangatmu tak pernah pudar
semoga uluran tanganmu penuh cinta kasih yang tak pernah sirna.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
I love you dad!! forever...
I miss u dad... Semoga cepat sembuh..
Papa,
Setiap kali memandang wajahmu
Hati ini begitu bersyukur
Hati ini begitu bahagia
Mempunyai seorang bapa sepertimu.
Papa,
Kehidupan kami begitu bermakna
Dengan titik peluhmu
Kami mengenali dunia
Dengan kasih-sayangmu
Kami mengenali bahagia
Papa,
Kami tahu susah payahmu
Kami tahu deritamu
Kami tahu budimu
Semuanya kau persembahkan
Tanpa sedikit pun rungutan
Tanpa sedikit pun kemalasan
Demi membela diri kami sekeluarga.
Papa,
Jutaan kasih dan penghargaan kami hulurkan
Buat cinta kasihmu, penat lelahmu,
Nasihat ikhlasmu, dan pengorbanan abadimu,
Yang sanggup berkorban segalanya
Hanya kerana keluarga tercinta.
Papa,
Setiap kali memandang wajahmu
Hati ini begitu bersyukur
Hati ini begitu bahagia
Mempunyai seorang bapa sepertimu.
Papa,
Kehidupan kami begitu bermakna
Dengan titik peluhmu
Kami mengenali dunia
Dengan kasih-sayangmu
Kami mengenali bahagia
Papa,
Kami tahu susah payahmu
Kami tahu deritamu
Kami tahu budimu
Semuanya kau persembahkan
Tanpa sedikit pun rungutan
Tanpa sedikit pun kemalasan
Demi membela diri kami sekeluarga.
Papa,
Jutaan kasih dan penghargaan kami hulurkan
Buat cinta kasihmu, penat lelahmu,
Nasihat ikhlasmu, dan pengorbanan abadimu,
Yang sanggup berkorban segalanya
Hanya kerana keluarga tercinta.
KISSES...
The Top 10 Health Benefits of Kissing...
Have been documented in medical studies offering amazing advantages for a long and healthy life.
1. Those who kiss their partner goodbye each morning live five years longer than those who don’t.
2. Kissing is great for self-esteem. It makes you feel appreciated and helps your state of mind.
3. Kissing burns calories, 2-3 calories a minute and can double your metabolic rate. Research claims that three passionate kisses a day (at least lasting 20 seconds each) will cause you to loose an entire extra pound! It's time to start that kissing diet!
4. Kissing is a known stress-reliever. Passionate kissing relieves tension, reduces negative energy and produces a sense of well being, lowering your cortisol ‘stress’ hormone.
5. Kissing uses 30 facial muscles and it helps keep the facial muscles tight, preventing baggy cheeks! The tension in the muscles caused by a passionate kiss helps smooth the skin and increases the circulation.
6. Kissing is good for the heart, as it creates an adrenaline which causes your heart to pump more blood around your body. Frequent kissing has scientifically been proven to stabilize cardiovascular activity, decrease blood pressure and cholesterol.
7. Those who kiss quite frequently are less likely to suffer from stomach, bladder and blood infections.
8. During a kiss, natural antibiotics are secreted in the saliva. Also, the saliva contains a type of anesthetic that helps relieve pain.
9. Kissing reduces anxiety and stops the 'noise' in your mind. It increases the levels of oxytocin, an extremely calming hormone that produces a feeling of peace.
10. The endorphins produced by kissing are 200 times more powerful than morphine.
Kissing is a universal language that requires no translation to glean it's message,indeed!!
So,lets kiss each other..chup2..muawh2..
To kiss a miss is not unlawful
But to miss a kiss is simply awful
Kissing spreads germs it is so stated
So kiss me baby, I'm vaccinated.
Have been documented in medical studies offering amazing advantages for a long and healthy life.
1. Those who kiss their partner goodbye each morning live five years longer than those who don’t.
2. Kissing is great for self-esteem. It makes you feel appreciated and helps your state of mind.
3. Kissing burns calories, 2-3 calories a minute and can double your metabolic rate. Research claims that three passionate kisses a day (at least lasting 20 seconds each) will cause you to loose an entire extra pound! It's time to start that kissing diet!
4. Kissing is a known stress-reliever. Passionate kissing relieves tension, reduces negative energy and produces a sense of well being, lowering your cortisol ‘stress’ hormone.
5. Kissing uses 30 facial muscles and it helps keep the facial muscles tight, preventing baggy cheeks! The tension in the muscles caused by a passionate kiss helps smooth the skin and increases the circulation.
6. Kissing is good for the heart, as it creates an adrenaline which causes your heart to pump more blood around your body. Frequent kissing has scientifically been proven to stabilize cardiovascular activity, decrease blood pressure and cholesterol.
7. Those who kiss quite frequently are less likely to suffer from stomach, bladder and blood infections.
8. During a kiss, natural antibiotics are secreted in the saliva. Also, the saliva contains a type of anesthetic that helps relieve pain.
9. Kissing reduces anxiety and stops the 'noise' in your mind. It increases the levels of oxytocin, an extremely calming hormone that produces a feeling of peace.
10. The endorphins produced by kissing are 200 times more powerful than morphine.
Kissing is a universal language that requires no translation to glean it's message,indeed!!
So,lets kiss each other..chup2..muawh2..
To kiss a miss is not unlawful
But to miss a kiss is simply awful
Kissing spreads germs it is so stated
So kiss me baby, I'm vaccinated.
Marunung ka ??
Oo naman..marunung ako..syempre!!
Its nice to be able to learn other languages a part from our mother tongue.
So today, at the age of 24, I did learn my mother tongue language-Bahasa Malaysia,
my native language-KadazanDusunRungus,English,Spanish,and Tagalog... I learned to converse,and write...im neither an advance user,nor a beginner.. a moderate i guess!! so im looking forward to learn korean language soon...a mandarin is a compulsory before i turn 26..
Its nice to be able to learn other languages a part from our mother tongue.
So today, at the age of 24, I did learn my mother tongue language-Bahasa Malaysia,
my native language-KadazanDusunRungus,English,Spanish,and Tagalog... I learned to converse,and write...im neither an advance user,nor a beginner.. a moderate i guess!! so im looking forward to learn korean language soon...a mandarin is a compulsory before i turn 26..
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Forgive my fear...
I walk on space,
On air so thin
I fear to fall.
Dear God forgive me
For my fear to love
For being so small
In a world so big
Forgive me for not wanting pain
For seeing it first before joy
I know I shouldn’t look first,
At how easily I bruise
Or harden my shell to outside touch,
Or hide within my self,
Or stare with dead eyes
Forgive my fear
Of reaching out over empty spaces,
For taking all the love you give
And giving nothing in turn
When next I shy, nudge me to try
When next I sigh, nudge me to smile
When next love needs, steady my feet
That I may be here,
To brave my fear.
Virgin diet??
hooray!!...
Starting this month, im going to eat healthy foods ONLY!!!
I'm going to eliminate some of my unwanted fats...specially on my thigh...though it looks sexy... latina thigh-i guess (ngengeee)
I'm not going to be underweight person, skinny or something that associate with it...
I'm going to have a well-propotioned type...
So, sure I'll have to terminate certain feel like heaven foods...haha...
NO SOFT DRINKS
NO FAST FOODS (the hardest things to ignore)
N0 PROCESSED FOODS
I wish i can do my sit-up consistently everyday...with full of dedication and eagerness...
Starting this month, im going to eat healthy foods ONLY!!!
I'm going to eliminate some of my unwanted fats...specially on my thigh...though it looks sexy... latina thigh-i guess (ngengeee)
I'm not going to be underweight person, skinny or something that associate with it...
I'm going to have a well-propotioned type...
So, sure I'll have to terminate certain feel like heaven foods...haha...
NO SOFT DRINKS
NO FAST FOODS (the hardest things to ignore)
N0 PROCESSED FOODS
I wish i can do my sit-up consistently everyday...with full of dedication and eagerness...
Help me FORGIVE...
When rage and fury overwhelm my heart,
It’s time to look to God’s own Holy Word.
I search the Bible for His good advice;
My will to His commands must be deferred.
In Romans God reveals His love for me;
In all things God works only for my good;
He gives me blessings I can’t understand;
I’d be peaceful if I’d do the things I should.
Jesus forgave so much; why then can’t I?
I want to mold my life after His own.
I pray, I try, but my sinful nature wins;
Lord, help me, I can’t do this thing alone.
In Colossians, I read about the peace of Christ;
Oh, how I long to feel it in my heart.
All I have to do is to forgive,
But Lord, it seems I don’t know where to start.
I need to walk a mile in the other’s shoes;
They’re doing what they think they have to do.
I know some problems are blessings in disguise,
But Lord, sometimes I feel so doggone blue.
Ephesians says "forgive as the Lord forgave you;
Get rid of anger and every form of malice."
I’d love to just let go and release it all,
But upon my heart is a wound that’s become a callus.
I’ll keep praying, trying, Lord, no matter what;
I’m determined to let go and relinquish blame;
Some day, I’ll say, and be truly sincere:
"I forgive it all in Jesus’ precious name."
(Romans 8:28, Colossians 3:13, Ephesians 4:31)
It’s time to look to God’s own Holy Word.
I search the Bible for His good advice;
My will to His commands must be deferred.
In Romans God reveals His love for me;
In all things God works only for my good;
He gives me blessings I can’t understand;
I’d be peaceful if I’d do the things I should.
Jesus forgave so much; why then can’t I?
I want to mold my life after His own.
I pray, I try, but my sinful nature wins;
Lord, help me, I can’t do this thing alone.
In Colossians, I read about the peace of Christ;
Oh, how I long to feel it in my heart.
All I have to do is to forgive,
But Lord, it seems I don’t know where to start.
I need to walk a mile in the other’s shoes;
They’re doing what they think they have to do.
I know some problems are blessings in disguise,
But Lord, sometimes I feel so doggone blue.
Ephesians says "forgive as the Lord forgave you;
Get rid of anger and every form of malice."
I’d love to just let go and release it all,
But upon my heart is a wound that’s become a callus.
I’ll keep praying, trying, Lord, no matter what;
I’m determined to let go and relinquish blame;
Some day, I’ll say, and be truly sincere:
"I forgive it all in Jesus’ precious name."
(Romans 8:28, Colossians 3:13, Ephesians 4:31)
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Scar...please
Im worried… always… when I looked some of my most obviously scars.. its look ugly..I wish I can rub them away as soon as possible. But then again, I think, there are some scar I want it permanently to be there… it reminds me, on the road I’ve taken in this world… I have an inch scar looks like crescent in my right arm...an inch on my middle nose, a size of 5 cent scar on my right leg.. (I want it to be there forever) … the scars are not going to be my trademark (hehehe) but, if its still be there until my hairs turn grey looks like I have a lot of childhood stories to be share to my descendant…
But please…no more scar in the future… flawless skin is better, for women indeed!!
But please…no more scar in the future… flawless skin is better, for women indeed!!
Alone ...again
I’m back again… sometimes I felt like im longing for writing something in my blog…
Then again my super laziness attitude was unbearable…
This week, I’ve been alone at home, its not by choice but seem everyone are eager to be home with their beloved family. I want to go home too…
but its just I can’t (for now)…
though I miss my home, dad, mum, my buntal, my pillows, my bed, foods exactly..
Alone make me thought about everything…e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g …yeah,you got it,..its everything… my past, present and future… I do..regrets a lot of things that happened in my life. Sometime I wish I can turn back times or rip a page ( pages if i can) of my life…if I could, I wouldn’t waste every single of great opportunities that poured in my life… I swear I would not… but im not perfect… will not and always not…
As the times passed by, I wish I can look again some of the great opportunities (that I missed) in the future… I dare to take it…
Then again my super laziness attitude was unbearable…
This week, I’ve been alone at home, its not by choice but seem everyone are eager to be home with their beloved family. I want to go home too…
but its just I can’t (for now)…
though I miss my home, dad, mum, my buntal, my pillows, my bed, foods exactly..
Alone make me thought about everything…e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g …yeah,you got it,..its everything… my past, present and future… I do..regrets a lot of things that happened in my life. Sometime I wish I can turn back times or rip a page ( pages if i can) of my life…if I could, I wouldn’t waste every single of great opportunities that poured in my life… I swear I would not… but im not perfect… will not and always not…
As the times passed by, I wish I can look again some of the great opportunities (that I missed) in the future… I dare to take it…
Friday, September 4, 2009
A Pencil...
Seorang pembuat pensil sebelum mengutus pensilnya ke dunia memberikan empat pesan. (1) Kamu bisa melakukan sesuatu yang luar biasa, tetapi hanya jika kamu mau berada di tangan seseorang. (2) Kamu akan menderita setiap kali kamu diruncingkan, tetapi kamu perlu itu untuk menjadi pensil yang baik. (3) Bagian yang terpenting dari hidupmu adalah bagian yang ada di dalam, bukan bagian luarnya. (4) Pada permukaan mana pun juga, selalu tinggalkan jejakmu dan teruslah menulis.
Ilustrasi di atas menyimpan kebenaran rohani yang luar biasa. Pertama, kita memiliki potensi yang luar biasa dan mampu melakukan hal yang besar. Hanya saja kalau kita membiarkan diri berada di tangan Tuhan. Kedua, ada kalanya kita akan mengalami proses-proses pengeratan dan peruncingan yang sangat menyakitkan. Itu membuat kita sangat menderita, tetapi mau tidak mau kita akan melewati proses itu demi kebaikan kita sendiri. Proses pengeratan kedagingan kita akan membuat karakter ilahi muncul dalam hidup kita.
Ketiga, bagian yang terpenting dalam hidup kita adalah bagian yang ada di dalam. Jangan pernah terjebak dengan hal-hal yang hanya merupakan penampilan luar saja. Tuhan tidak pernah tergiur dengan topeng-topeng kita. Tuhan lebih melihat kedalaman hati kita. Keempat, di mana pun Tuhan taruh kita, selalu tinggalkan jejak atau “tulisan-tulisan” yang benar-benar bisa memengaruhi orang yang membacanya. Jadilah orang kristiani yang berpengaruh dan selalu meninggalkan kesan yang mendalam bagi setiap orang yang bertemu dengan kita.
....I was so hopeless,frustrated,even angry sometimes,but when i read "sebuah pensil" .. i slowly gain back all the joyous and blessings i've left behind.. Thank You,Jesus.. for love me as I am...
Ilustrasi di atas menyimpan kebenaran rohani yang luar biasa. Pertama, kita memiliki potensi yang luar biasa dan mampu melakukan hal yang besar. Hanya saja kalau kita membiarkan diri berada di tangan Tuhan. Kedua, ada kalanya kita akan mengalami proses-proses pengeratan dan peruncingan yang sangat menyakitkan. Itu membuat kita sangat menderita, tetapi mau tidak mau kita akan melewati proses itu demi kebaikan kita sendiri. Proses pengeratan kedagingan kita akan membuat karakter ilahi muncul dalam hidup kita.
Ketiga, bagian yang terpenting dalam hidup kita adalah bagian yang ada di dalam. Jangan pernah terjebak dengan hal-hal yang hanya merupakan penampilan luar saja. Tuhan tidak pernah tergiur dengan topeng-topeng kita. Tuhan lebih melihat kedalaman hati kita. Keempat, di mana pun Tuhan taruh kita, selalu tinggalkan jejak atau “tulisan-tulisan” yang benar-benar bisa memengaruhi orang yang membacanya. Jadilah orang kristiani yang berpengaruh dan selalu meninggalkan kesan yang mendalam bagi setiap orang yang bertemu dengan kita.
....I was so hopeless,frustrated,even angry sometimes,but when i read "sebuah pensil" .. i slowly gain back all the joyous and blessings i've left behind.. Thank You,Jesus.. for love me as I am...
My good OLD friends..
To Luciyana, Layni, Zuliza, Noraini, Rowena, Noranida, Rosmarina.
Hey, girls!! I miss all of u…haha..remember the times we used to fight each other.. ketawa smpi keluar air mata.. our teachers separated us because we talked too much in class…haha…tp kta still kirim surat to each others jst to umpat m’gumpat other people..( surat yang ada lukisan muka masing2 lg tu) I remembered the letter that been caught by ms.jee during her math class..she reads it loud in front of our class…what a funny thing.. kta pnyla scared gila..takut rahsia kta bocor..(I guess its between me,lucy and wen)
Remember lg ka..stiap ari jumaat kita pg hospital..hanya nak naik turun lif,..and tengok baby yang baru lahir…( selain buat kerja amal utk zuliza…haha kirim surat cinta dia sma tu doctor...) Seronok ni time kta masih high school dlu.. kta pg makan mee sup d bakau area( blkg skolah kta)..masing2 berabis nak “recreate how the soup taste”… but still cant fight c zuliza pnya mee sup jg la..yang pedas gila tu..
Masa Layni pindah pg kunak,.. mmm ada beberapa malam x dpt tdr.. sbb I cant imagine our group without her..i miss her so much…time tu blm ada hp lg kan so nak keep in touch pn payah…until now..lost contact ngan layni..
I wish our friendship will be everlasting... if there is incarnation...i would ask God,that i want all of u be along my side again...haha...
Skrg all of u dah kerja…Im the one who still in school… arrrgh… tidak sabar rasanya nak kerja..earn money..pamper myself..bla..bla..
Hey, girls!! I miss all of u…haha..remember the times we used to fight each other.. ketawa smpi keluar air mata.. our teachers separated us because we talked too much in class…haha…tp kta still kirim surat to each others jst to umpat m’gumpat other people..( surat yang ada lukisan muka masing2 lg tu) I remembered the letter that been caught by ms.jee during her math class..she reads it loud in front of our class…what a funny thing.. kta pnyla scared gila..takut rahsia kta bocor..(I guess its between me,lucy and wen)
Remember lg ka..stiap ari jumaat kita pg hospital..hanya nak naik turun lif,..and tengok baby yang baru lahir…( selain buat kerja amal utk zuliza…haha kirim surat cinta dia sma tu doctor...) Seronok ni time kta masih high school dlu.. kta pg makan mee sup d bakau area( blkg skolah kta)..masing2 berabis nak “recreate how the soup taste”… but still cant fight c zuliza pnya mee sup jg la..yang pedas gila tu..
Masa Layni pindah pg kunak,.. mmm ada beberapa malam x dpt tdr.. sbb I cant imagine our group without her..i miss her so much…time tu blm ada hp lg kan so nak keep in touch pn payah…until now..lost contact ngan layni..
I wish our friendship will be everlasting... if there is incarnation...i would ask God,that i want all of u be along my side again...haha...
Skrg all of u dah kerja…Im the one who still in school… arrrgh… tidak sabar rasanya nak kerja..earn money..pamper myself..bla..bla..
My Beloved Buntal...
I really love my Buntal…and won’t trade him for anything else. I hope he will grow old with me… be able to love my kids ( soon..after my holy matrimony haha) like I love him.. I wish that he will stay the same … his longer fur,..his “miaw2 manja”... mmm except his bad habit… but my life wouldn’t be thrill if he doesn’t do that ( I guess,..) It consumes energy, time, and my unbelievable patient just to clean his waste… Bathing time for him is so difficult… I have to deal with his aggressive attitude…and unstoppable “miaw2 manja” …
Thanks a lot to my family, for look after my Buntal while im far.. my Buntal weight 4kg 300g ( measured on 30th July 2009) quite big dah dia tu…
I remembered that there were days (3 days) he was missing in action… I was so worried, I cried ...keep searched (even developed a group of search scout (among kids) so I can find my Buntal, and aftertht siap bgi upah lg…) I guess my Buntal pg cari sumandak… (its not that I jealous),.. but please la my Buntal,.. after berjoli tu,..come back home.. I love u so much ba…
So, since my bro ada cat jg..c Grace.. mari kaC kawin Buntal sma c Grace..its will benefit us together jg tu… Sorry my Buntal… I remembered bila kami hantar my mr.Buntal to vet clinic..hotel section (for pets yg kna kaC tggl if the owner was away..) haha…all the other pet’s name is vogue..except my Buntal.. The cat beside him, was Mr.James, the parrot is Ms.Pinky,. (and so on..) but when I look at ur cage… its Mr.Buntal..haha… I laughed a lot and make fun of ur name when I told our family about it..( but Im the one who name u, Buntal…*wink* rite?!!) haha..next time if u have kids, I swear I’ll name them yg cantik2..( to fight my bro’s cat name…c Ms.Grace and the late Mr.Gary)..
p/s: Wes, I know u still in mourning time… So sorry to heard Mr.Gary was dead (1st sept 09) already.. I know how its felt..remembered how we love C Pungut…last2 mati kena pukul org “gila” tu…slow dead lg dia tu..
Thanks a lot to my family, for look after my Buntal while im far.. my Buntal weight 4kg 300g ( measured on 30th July 2009) quite big dah dia tu…
I remembered that there were days (3 days) he was missing in action… I was so worried, I cried ...keep searched (even developed a group of search scout (among kids) so I can find my Buntal, and aftertht siap bgi upah lg…) I guess my Buntal pg cari sumandak… (its not that I jealous),.. but please la my Buntal,.. after berjoli tu,..come back home.. I love u so much ba…
So, since my bro ada cat jg..c Grace.. mari kaC kawin Buntal sma c Grace..its will benefit us together jg tu… Sorry my Buntal… I remembered bila kami hantar my mr.Buntal to vet clinic..hotel section (for pets yg kna kaC tggl if the owner was away..) haha…all the other pet’s name is vogue..except my Buntal.. The cat beside him, was Mr.James, the parrot is Ms.Pinky,. (and so on..) but when I look at ur cage… its Mr.Buntal..haha… I laughed a lot and make fun of ur name when I told our family about it..( but Im the one who name u, Buntal…*wink* rite?!!) haha..next time if u have kids, I swear I’ll name them yg cantik2..( to fight my bro’s cat name…c Ms.Grace and the late Mr.Gary)..
p/s: Wes, I know u still in mourning time… So sorry to heard Mr.Gary was dead (1st sept 09) already.. I know how its felt..remembered how we love C Pungut…last2 mati kena pukul org “gila” tu…slow dead lg dia tu..
Blogging
I restart my blog again...lama tak blog so, i make my new blog as i thought mmm..lets write something during salad days...so i have to move the previous posts to this my new blog..
1st Love -reminiscence
Its been years ago.. seronok rasanya bila perasaan cinta itu hadir.(apa lagi klu 1st love kan..) When I remember it, I jst want to burst and cry (sometime la..regreting I guess)… but let bygone be bygone… anyway, it’s a feeling that money cant buy.
But the heartbreak took times to heal… tipu sebenarnya pepatah “lets time heal the wound”.. (hehe bagi akulah) maybe I love him much than the words can describe, so when it came to an end, I felt a part of myself been rip off…its really hurt that I thought( on that time la) its better if I just lost my mind… but suddenly I remembered the pray … doa yang slalu aku mohon..for my life..(…God, You know exactly the best man in my life..blah,blah,blah).. and after 2 years of my relationship, its ended. I know God have answered it. Even from the start, I have a feeling that this man wouldn’t be the one im sharing my bed with (haha) for the rest of my life..(bcoz sometimes, I dreamed that I don’t want to walk the aisle with him,..haha) … (thank God its ended) its jst the breakup process I dnt like.. he’s been a coward to admit it personally…people said he’s a good guy, a loyal fren ( and so on) .. but after what had happened, my respect to him..lansung tiada…( I still remembered that on that time I love him so much, that even if something happened to him, like he suddenly buta or else, im willing to be with him for the rest of his life) so, I guess he’s the one who lose more…BECAUSE I CAN LOVE SOMEONE ELSE LIKE I LOVE HIM… but I believe in karma too… klu kta buat jahat pd seseorg...akan di balas jahat jg..(the situation myb changes but the *hurt* feeling will be the same) haha…
So, guys if u loves someone…don’t make her/he know ur feeling for them… If u say “I love u” let it be forever.. or u might end up hurting them…
But the heartbreak took times to heal… tipu sebenarnya pepatah “lets time heal the wound”.. (hehe bagi akulah) maybe I love him much than the words can describe, so when it came to an end, I felt a part of myself been rip off…its really hurt that I thought( on that time la) its better if I just lost my mind… but suddenly I remembered the pray … doa yang slalu aku mohon..for my life..(…God, You know exactly the best man in my life..blah,blah,blah).. and after 2 years of my relationship, its ended. I know God have answered it. Even from the start, I have a feeling that this man wouldn’t be the one im sharing my bed with (haha) for the rest of my life..(bcoz sometimes, I dreamed that I don’t want to walk the aisle with him,..haha) … (thank God its ended) its jst the breakup process I dnt like.. he’s been a coward to admit it personally…people said he’s a good guy, a loyal fren ( and so on) .. but after what had happened, my respect to him..lansung tiada…( I still remembered that on that time I love him so much, that even if something happened to him, like he suddenly buta or else, im willing to be with him for the rest of his life) so, I guess he’s the one who lose more…BECAUSE I CAN LOVE SOMEONE ELSE LIKE I LOVE HIM… but I believe in karma too… klu kta buat jahat pd seseorg...akan di balas jahat jg..(the situation myb changes but the *hurt* feeling will be the same) haha…
So, guys if u loves someone…don’t make her/he know ur feeling for them… If u say “I love u” let it be forever.. or u might end up hurting them…
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