Forgiveness

I learned a lot and still learning the deep meaning of forgiveness itself. I related it to letting go of anger, bitterness and the desire for revenge. But somehow, as a human, it's really damn hard to say; i forgive you and mean it... and that is why, I always tied my tongue in any controversial situations or I might end up regretting every single hurtful words and actions that come across upon that situations. I remembered for the past few years, I learned patience and forgiveness do come along together.
I know that forgiveness wasn't cut and dried, that there might be recriminations and barbed remarks for some time to come. But live is to short to be filled with hatred.


p/s: To my aunt,.. I love you, and still love you!!! Despite all the hurtful acts and words you've poured in my family... Deep down in my heart, i prayed that soon you'll be a better person... and we can share all the good things that happen in our life as one big family... Amen

Enduring Love

I remembered years ago, while I was enjoying sipping my cup of hot chocolate in one of my fave coffee shop, I saw an older couple - a man with a cane and a white-haired women, walking hand in hand. It was a beautiful reminder that while our culture glorifies youthful romance, true love has many stages during our journey through life. Paul's great essay in 1 Corinthians 13 celebrates the depth & tenacity of the love that carries us beyond self-interest & mere affection. ( Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoice in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.)

When our commitments are tested in the fires of life, no matter what difficulties we face, may God grant us a greater experience of His enduring love and the grace to demonstrate it each day.

Obligations

What do we really owe the people we love? Do we owe them labor we would not otherwise choose to commit to? After all, if they truly loved us, would they honestly expect us to do something we didn't want to do? would the feel right, benefiting from those labors? would we feel better doing it if it had been our idea in the first place? If so, then who are we really doing it for? The good of the family ? Self- gratification? Maybe a little of both isn't so bad. But it would be much easier to figure out if guilt could be taken out of mix. Too often guilt blurs the line. Separating what does get done from what should be done...

Buluh yang terkulai

Buluh yang terkulai
Takkan Kau putuskan
Sumbu yang pudar
Takkan Kau padamkan
Kasih Mu mengatasi s’mua kelemahan
Kasih Mu menutupi s’mua kesalahan
Betapa mulia hati Mu

Kau tak menolak
Yang datang pada Mu
Kau t’rima dengan
tangan yang terbuka
pengampunan sempurna yang Engkau berikan
tak pandang betapapun besar kesalahan
betapa mulia hati Mu

c/o
ku sembah Kau
dengan setulusnya hatiku
ku sembah Kau
dgn s’genap perbuatanku
dgn s’gala keberadaanku
ku bri hormat pujian
hanya untuk Mu
ku sembah Kau
nama diatas s’gala nama
ku sembah Kau
Tuhan diatas s’gala tuhan
dengan s’gala yang ada padaku
Ku b’ri hormat sembahku
Untuk Mu, Yesus Kristus

- lagu rohani yang sangat memberkati, hayati liriknya ya..
saya dapat lagu ni dari youtube di nyanyikan oleh Vocalgroup Damai.
saya mengkagumi vocalgroup Damai kerana penyanyinya yg sdh berumur tetapi mempunyai paduan suara yang baik. semoga Tuhan memakai mereka lewat suara dan keperibadian mereka untuk membawa lebih banyak lagi jiwa2 untuk Dia, Yesus Kristus.

Every single tear

I was browsing the Youtube yesterday, so lucky that I found such a wonderful song, the lyrics are so meaningful, and here it goes;

You feel insignificant, a whisper in the wind
Sometimes you think nobody knows your name
But there’s somebody watching over you
And HE knows everything you’re going through

He sees every single tear
He feels everything you’re feeling
He wants to hold you close and dry your eyes
Your heart is what He hears
When the world just hears you crying
No matter what the pain
He cares about every single tear

Overwhelmed by circumstances out of your control
Hope can be the hardest thing to find
When you’re like a heart without home
You don’t have to face this hurt alone
If God adorns the lilies in the field
And cares for every sparrow in the sky
How much more is He aware of your sorrow and despair
How much does He care about your life.

Sharing…

Being independent is fine. More than fine really… I’ve long realized it’s a good thing, knowing you can be a good company all by yourself. I’ve recently been made aware of how surprisingly fulfilling it can be to share your own good company with someone you care about. It really does magnify all the wonderful things.

Jiwa KACAU!!

Apalah nasib aku ni... klu ble nangis darah myb saat ni dh sebaldi darah bertakung...
Lord,give me wisdom in time i dnt know...

sharing..

My influence

"My life shall touch a dozen lives
Before this day is done
Leave countless marks of good or ill,
E'er sets the evening sun.

This the wish I always wish,
The prayer I always pray;
Lord may my life help others lives
It touches by the way."

- Author unknown -

Way back into love…

I’ll be 25 years young this year. Maybe its time for me to find someone who I can share my dream with (a steady boyfriend that lead to holy matrimony, yay!!) my FnF (frenz and family) keep asking to whom I attach with; with a poker face I answered, I’m attach to no one… I admit that I do have a lot of men in line just waiting me to say ‘yes, I do like and love you too’…but I guess I’m not really into them rite now ( I’m certified true woman,OKAY! Not a lesbo)
I wish that, once I found someone, let him be my everlasting soul mate. It’s been almost four years I’m unattached… its not that I’m used to it, I did felt its miserable being single. It just that I can’t bear the feeling of heart broken. The last time (which happened to be my first love) was killing me softly. My heart is so fragile (I guess) until it broke into pieces…assembling the pieces was a real challenging process for me as I tend to look at the past and regret was linger in my heart…anyway, as time flies,… I’m far too good without him at last… as I learned how to forgive and forget…
I’m the woman who loves 100% my man, that’s how love should be I guess. I’m just a typical girl, lots of flaw and imperfection… it’s a way too much for me if I ask God to grant me someone who dearly look like an angel in every way… I just want to be with someone who can lift my soul when I’m down, someone who can look beyond the wall and I don’t want someone who born and raised in silver spoon, because I’m willing to accompany my man at the bottom until we reach the peak of our life. It’s good to enjoy the feeling how life change from nothing to something. I know the journey we walk together surely was not beautiful as I imagine but as long as we love and trust each other, and the respect we build through the commitment to live as one, I believe we can endure anything…anything…
Emmmph... I wish I can find someone within these two years (that’s not a resolution, guys! It’s a note to God)

Aku cinta bukan di bayang mata,…

Happy New Year!

It’s been a while… tak tulis something di blog ni..,rindu rasanya.
Inilah kali pertama aku menaip sesuatu di Tahun 2010 ini. Bila ku kenangkan tahun 2009, banyak memberikanku kenangan suka dan duka. Terlalu banyak pengalaman yang tidak ingin kulupakan. Kekesalan dan kedukaan itu lebih banyak menghiasi diari 2009 ku..
Sambutan Tahun Baru kali ini, aku sambut seperti tahun lepas. Sunyi tanpa kehadiran teman2 dan keluarga. Tahun lepas, hanya aku dan udoi saja. Kali ni, aku dgn olga lah pula… Harap2 tahun depan tak sambut Tahun Baru mcm ni lagi… Apapun, aku menikmati sepenuhnya detik peralihan 2009 ke 2010. Banyak perkara terlintas di fikiran, segala usaha yang telah dilakukan, impian yang tidak termakbul,peluang yang terlepas..banyak sangat yang terlintas..lantas mempersalahkan keterbatasan diri.
Hanya doa yang kupanjatkan dikelilingi bunyi bunga api di rumah2 jiran..tdk seperti selalu…ada bbq, jamuan…
Semoga tahun 2010 ini, memberikan kita kedamaian, kesatuan hati dan kesihatan yang baik. Biarlah kasih yang kita tabur sepanjang tahun lalu, kita gandakan lagi tahun ini..dan semoga pengalaman lalu mendewasakan kita…

SELAMAT TAHUN BARU semuaaaa!!
(hiduplah dalam terang hari ini dan pengharapan hari esok)